Wornoutwoman

My kiddo has had a crush on the same girl since 2nd grade.  On the first day he saw her, his smile lit up his face and he instantly began chatting her head off.  She was shy and was unsure about her new school and he made it his mission to befriend her and give her a great first year. In third grade, (I'll never forget this) I was rushing him out the door for school.  He was dawdling ... like he always does ... and his face transformed from everyday kid to a starstruck dreamer.  He smiled and stared out to nothing at all and said, "You know mommy ... I'm going to marry that girl someday and carry her over the threshold in her wedding dress.  I even know who my best men are going to be."  I blinked twice unsure of how to answer, told him that he was very sweet, and continued rushing him out the door for school. In fourth grade, he wanted to start buying her gifts for birthdays, Christmas, or practically any other reason he could think of.  We'd arr...

Forever I'll love you...forever my baby you'll be.  This is something I used to read to my son from a book on his shelf. I've always told him that no matter how old he get, he'd always be my baby. And he is my baby ... however this summer many changes took place. He grew up overnight and grew about three inches.  All of a sudden my little guy isn't so little anymore. On the first day of school, he instructed me that I could walk him in on the first day but from there on afterward - I was to drop him off at the curb ... 'because he was a man now and he didn't need his mom to walk him in.' Sigh... So as he's now eight and a half years old, I'm seeing the young man he's growing into. He's matured in so many ways, and it's time for him to grow up. It's time for those apron strings to be cut in some ways. It's with such bittersweet emotion that I let go of his hand and let him walk free from the shadow of the little baby...

I took a nap...I had too. I allowed my son to watch a movie that was PG for the first time, so you'd think I'd stay up to monitor as much as I've got on my soapbox on this blog about kids and movies. I tried staying up to watch it with him, but my eyes just couldn't make it. My husband's work schedule is always crazy, but lately, it's more than that. Hmmm...this used to be about my wornoutness due to my schedule and now it's from his plus mine. My husband's erratic schedule has caused some interruptions in my sleep, to say the least. So when my son and I were on the soft comfy couch, the kind that sucks you in when you sit...it was too good to be true. My five-year-old woke me up once to make him popcorn and it was like dragging a 100-pound weight to open my eyelids and even harder to make myself get up and walk to the kitchen. After the movie was over, I woke up to silence. I didn't see my son anywhere and I wondered how long he'...