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Saturday, January 27, 2018

See you soon, Susan

When my son was about three - I realized that my life had become central to just being a mom and a wife.  I looked around at my relationships and realized my best friends were my husband, mom, and my sister.

Don't get me wrong!  Those are great best friends to have.  They're all wonderful caring people who want the best for me.  But ... sometimes a girl just needs a BFF who has no family ties.

It was then that I looked at my life and realized what a vast hole was within as I had no friend to call and just 'talk' or bond with.  I had plenty of casual friends, acquaintances, and really close long-distance friends, yet there was no one at the same stage in life that I could bond with.

I soon prayed and asked God to send me someone that was in the same boat as me - someone who needed a loyal friend and that would 'fit'.  That very next day, I sat next to a blue-eyed, blond, friendly face at my son's soccer game.  Although I knew who Susan was - because she and my son played intermural toddler soccer together - I never had really been able to connect with her.  
I'll never forget that first day we clicked on the sidelines and I realized that she was someone I could really enjoy spending time with.  I don't remember if we exchanged numbers.  I don't remember how we even started hanging out.  All I know is that we were so much alike and had so many of the same likes, flaws, personality quirks, and sense of humor that being a friend with her was as easy as breathing.  There was no pretense. Our friendship felt more like a sisterhood.  It didn't hurt that our sons were friends and our husbands were so much alike that they were often the source of our humor.

Fast forward twelve years and I'm once again suffering from a deep hole in my heart.  My dear friend, Susan, has been gone for just over a month.  She was taken too soon and fought a very long battle with cancer.  And, I hate you, cancer ... I really do.  Even though it took her in the end, Susan still won because of all the lives she touched by being the toughest and most fierce warrior known to man.


Her bright shining smile and strong faith and zest for life left an impact on everyone she met.  Her laughter and fierce humor were magnetic to all of us that had the honor of knowing her. She'd be the first to point out any and all typo's in this post, but would also be the first to tell me how much she loved what it said and how it made her feel.  She was my biggest fan and me, hers.   

She fought terminal cancer for five years when the doctors said she had months.  She shined a light on how much God gave her and blessed her with when most would curl up in a corner and cry for the life they were losing.  She got up and went to work on days when her body was convulsing with sickness just to prove she could.  She pushed through to meet her friends for coffee ... to live life as a normal mom after carpool ... when her legs hurt so bad she didn't think she could put one foot in front of the other.

But that's who she was - a fighter.  No one or thing, like cancer, could define her.  She was an undefinable, outside the box, unbeatable, and memorable person.  And if you'd spent one day with her - you'd know how blessed you were to have her in your life.

I said goodbye to my friend a few days before her passing when it was just the two of us.  Much like our first day on that sideline, we had our own language and spoke of things the two of us understood.  There was also just the girl talk that sometimes felt good just to focus on instead of the situation she was in.  She complimented me on my hair.  I ran my fingers through her short grey curly hair, that had changed from her normal long shiny blond locks of years ago and told her how happy I was that hers was growing back in.

She asked about my work ... I lamented that my full-time job kept me away from being there for her in many ways. I expressed this knowing she already understood.  We exchanged words telling each other how much we loved each other.

And when she apologized for dozing off - I smiled and told her to rest.  That's the kind of girl she was - always caring about the other person first.  It was no matter that she couldn't hold her eyes open because she was in her last few days of life - she felt bad that she couldn't pay me the attention she thought I deserved.  I told her not to be silly and to get rest - to sleep because we'd have time to catch up later.  Even though I knew we wouldn't.

Then, I kissed her on the cheek and told her 'I'll see you later.'  I couldn't say goodbye.  As a believer in God's promises, I know I will see her again.  That didn't make the walk to my car the hardest thing I've done ... Walking away from her knowing it would be the last time I'd visit my bestie was so surreal filled with deep pain yet a thought of 'is this really happening?'.


Now I find myself pausing before I pick up the phone to call even though I know she's not there to answer.  I catch myself almost texting her because something funny happened and I know she'd laugh.  I have to stop myself from looking for her car in carpool because I can no longer hop in and visit.  I went to lunch with a couple of our friends yesterday and it was good to catch up - but it wasn't the same without her.

I picked up my Christmas gift from her today - a Jesus Calling devotional book.  Her handwriting is beautifully displayed inside with touching words inscribed with care. Tears immediately came as I read them.

When this ever-clinging melancholy wraps around my heart like saran wrap, I have to focus on the blessings to push forward.
  • She is finally free from her leiomyosarcoma.  She is surely running around heaven with a huge smile.
  • She touched thousands with her testimony and faith through her personal journey as she battled this disease.  Her strength affected so many in such a positive way.
  • She lived five times longer than she was told she would - still not long enough but longer than expected.
  • Most importantly, she is with her Heavenly Father and is able to see how her walk in life was paid in full with her everlasting life in Heaven.
I close with a note to my friend ... 



Susan,  I miss you.  And, although, I can't pick up the phone and call you - I still feel like you're here.  Although you can't talk back to me, I find myself speaking to you in a room when no one is around.  And I know things on your side of things has different timing than where I am.  My time will seem like the blink of an eye - just like the Bible says - while you'll have waited a short time for your loved ones to join you.  I meant it when I said, I'll see you soon.  For me, it will take many many years - and since I have no idea what that looks like for you - I'll just keep doing things down here in your honor that would make you proud.

See you soon, my friend. You are missed!
 #GodHasThis




Friday, December 29, 2017

Coming to a Close


With only days until the new year, I think we're all breathing a sigh of relief to start a new chapter as 2017 comes to a close.


This last year has been filled with so much negative press, political rhetoric, scandals, and media mayhem that I'm ready - like most people I know - to let it all go.


So, I'm asking you to look toward 2018 with a goal in mind.  Some call it a New Year's resolution - but I'm not a big believer in those.  I think we should make our lives better EVERY DAY not just at the first of the New Year.

Find within yourself three ways you can improve your life, the lives around you, and your community.  Approach those three goals (whether it be letting go of anger, volunteering in your church or community, or supporting a cause) with the intent to make it a year-long campaign.

Focus on what you can do to improve the world around you and LET GO of the negativity that others fall prey to.

BE the DIFFERENCE to balance out the hate and the anger in our culture.  Make a cultural shift and watch how it makes a difference in the lives around you.  And message me when you've thought of what you're going to do to make that shift!  I'd love to hear from you.




Tuesday, November 07, 2017

Pronoun users - don't fear!!!

So, I just expanded my distribution with Pronoun ... like a month ago.  Yesterday, they announced they were shutting down and yelling timber all the way.  Sigh.

To all my fellow authors or would be authors, don't fear.  Digital2Draft is a great replacement.  They've got a larger distribution channel and a real LIVE person you can talk to.

My biggest issue with Pronoun was how UN-user-friendly they were.  It was a pain in my big behind to get something to upload correct the first, second or third time.  If you didn't use the right heading style or have a page break at the perfect spot, you'd spend hours trying to wrap your head around where the mistake was without the ability to talk to someone.  All you could do was send an email for help, hoping they'd get back to you.

So, far with one day under my belt with Draft2Digital - I am over the MOON with delight.

So, if you were like me yesterday ... in a bit of shock - don't stress.  You're back up option (Draft2Digital) probably should have been your starter option to begin with.

Call them up ... ask questions ... and don't wait until Jan 15th, when Pronoun to set to delete all books from their system.  Delete them now and transfer them over.  Then, watch how much easier it is to upload your files without a blip or a hassle.  And guess what?  If you get confused, there is a live person in a customer service call center where you can actually get some real help.


Monday, September 11, 2017

5 STARS


I found my first review on Goodreads today.  I was like - YES!  People are surprised and feeling - truly feeling - the emotion that I poured into every page.

So far Amazon has 4 reviews - all 5 stars.

From the day I started writing this one - God whispered in my heart, 'This is the one.'  I don't know the extent of what that means until all the chips fall, but so far this is starting out much better than the other books I've released!

If you've never read any of my books --- YOU NEED TO START WITH THIS ONE.

It's something special ...  the synopsis tells a bit of the story, but by no means delves into the whole thing.  There's not enough room on the back cover of a book to give readers a glimpse of what truly is between the pages.

If you're able to read this one - please leave me a review.  Reviews are how other readers find me.
So, I thank you in advance!

AND THANK YOU, NELL!  I'm honored you like my books.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Book Give-away!


If you'd like a shot at receiving a signed paperback of ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES - CLICK HERE!

This contest is open to readers in the U.S., Canada, Great Britain, and Australia - and will run between the dates of Sept 12th - October 15th, 2017.

Be the first to read this new book! Winners are picked randomly at the end of the giveaway.
Once you've read the book, kindly leave a review on Amazon and Goodreads.

Also, if you enter to win - I'd love to hear from you. Message me, tweet me, or leave me a message here.  



Synopsis




After the tragic loss of her husband, Alexis Mathers packs up her clairvoyant, seven-year-old daughter and heads for home only to find that her grandmother, Evelyn Bozeman, has died in a mysterious accident. As Evelyn’s life was an enigma before her marriage into the Bozeman family, Alexis makes it her sole mission to understand who her grandmother was and the kind of life she left behind.

Although Tyler Jameson grew up on a neighboring ranch, he was a staple on the Bozeman farm, where he, Alexis, and her brother were constant companions - until the day they weren’t. His appreciation for Alexis always stopped just short of flirting, but now that she’s back in town, she’s more of a distraction that he could ever imagine.

Before they realize it, Evelyn’s secrets draw them into a power struggle with a family from Evelyn’s past. A family that will stop at nothing to keep their secrets buried, even if that means taking more lives.

See what happens when Alexis and Tyler are reintroduced after life has molded them into perfect partners whether they know it or not. Read along to learn how a little heavenly help via a deceased grandmother, helps give them a push. And, find out if Evelyn can protect her granddaughter from the wheels she put in motion before it's too late?

Tuesday, September 05, 2017

In the Electronic Age

How many of us are so attached to our phones or our games that we would have a sense of anxiety without them?  Studies show iPhone anxiety is a real condition, and, trust me, most of us feel it on some level every day.

How many times do you wander the house when you can't remember where you put your phone? How about when your phone slips between the seats of your car?  It's a mini-panic attack in the making.

Imagine this times a thousand if for some reason we lost access to power.  How would your world change?  How would medicine get sent to the pharmacy in a timely manner?  If computers were a thing of the past, how would we stay connected or get our jobs done?  It gives me chills to think of how our lives would change.

Well,  a very smart group of people decided to write, produce, and make a series about this very thing with 'Our Daily Bread'.

The show highlights two segments of groups - Millennials, whose concern is solely for themselves and the entertainment-driven world they live in, and a bunch of loveable preppers, who realize the world we live in is moving too fast for anyone's good and are trying to prepare for the worst.

The series opens on seven millennial women who are fixated on the electronics in their lives to either aid them with their downtime or their careers, which happens to be producing a television cooking show.  Due to the result of a sun-flare, which comes a bit too close to earth, all power, including the batteries in the cars, are affected.  Everything shuts down in an instant and all lives change forever.


The goal is no longer instant gratification.  The focus in finding food, fighting for survival, and rebuilding their community/civilization in a new world.


This series premieres THIS WEEK and it looks to be one that everyone will connect with.


Take some time to watch it with your family.  Let it start discussions.  Put away your electronics ... okay, not the television ...but all handheld or desktop personal devices and use this show as a tool to open discussion.

Check out the trailer here and stay tuned!






Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Pre-Order Endless Possibilities Now


A few updates for you all...

The launch party is set for October 1st in Oklahoma City.  If prizes, a signed copy of my latest book, and a fun atmosphere sound like a good time to you - then go to my author site and subscribe to get details on the party.

For now, for those of you who are not local and can not travel to OKC for your own signed copy - you can pre-order it here so when September 24th rolls around the e-book will download to your Ipad or Kindle.

**You can use a Kindle app on any smart phone or device ... so don't think you need a Kindle to pre-order it.

I hope to hear from you or see you soon!


Saturday, July 15, 2017

Victory for Victoria


Although this is not typically my kind of genre, I stepped outside my box to experience something new, with the Warble by Victoria Simcox.  And, am I glad I did.

The Warble is a pleasant surprise in that it's not just a tale of fantasy.  It holds truth and real life principles that are steadfast in our real lives.  The main character, Kristina, holds the pain of rejection from society or her peers.  Through her suffering, one person sees her potential and offers her a gift in the Warble - an unsuspecting metal ball that is the key to her destiny through another world - one where Kristina is labeled 'The Chosen One'.

There are threads that point to God and his everlasting love in this book.  The story parallels Jesus' return and his victory over a fallen world.  Those that have the faith - will see it.  Those that don't want religion thrown in their face don't have to worry because it's so slight all you'll uncover is a really good book that offers a story of good triumphing over evil.

Any parent looking for an intriguing and thoughtful series for their kids should look at this one.  The Warble is book one of the Bernovem series. You can rest assured this story is a shining light in the dark sea of kid series, which are far more graphic than they should be.

The Warble holds truths that we all carry near to our heart with friendships that form through tragedy and triumph, confidence that builds through self-discovery, and triumph that allow us all to cheer for the victor who's slain the proverbial dragon.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Stay Tuned

Stay tuned for a release date for my sixth novel.  Thanks to all of you, who read and support my books.  I appreciate each one of you!

Friday, June 16, 2017

A State of Mind


I was raised running around barefoot on an island, where we only wore shoes when we had to.  When I absolutely was forced to wear shoes - I slipped my toes into my favorite slippah's.

Then, I moved to Oklahoma and as far as the eye could see - people wore boots.  Although I think cowboy boots are great, it just wasn't what I had grown up in.  So in the dead of winter - I was still rocking my flip flops whenever I could.

Now 27 years later - they're everywhere!  And, it makes my heart happy to see how many jet around in those small shoes that are so freeing.  They not only allow our feet to breath during a hot summer but they instill a vacation mindset.  I think everyone has an extra pep in their step when the slip on theirs.  Nowadays, they come in all shapes and sizes.  Some are blinged out. Some are furry or fluffy.  And some are cushioned and comfy.

While here I am - still rocking my island girl style with the basic plastic slippah's ... or to most everyone else - flip flops.

So HAPPY NATIONAL FLIP FLOP DAY to all of you, who embrace this amazing lifestyle.  Because they're not just shoes - they're a state of mind.  The only bad part about them is that they make me miss the beach!  

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Wonder Woman - Must See Film This Summer

From start to finish, this film was spellbinding.  From the second it came on screen, an action-filled soundtrack paired with flat two-dimensional graphics flooded the screen & allowed a glimpse of Wonder Woman’s journey in life before she evolved into a pop culture world-while phenomenon.   Her Amazon spirit set an entirely different tone for anyone who was used to the television version of Diana Prince.

Gal Gadot, an Isreali actress, martial arts expert, and model easily stepped into the tall boots of the warrior princess and made the transition making us feel she wasn’t just an actress playing a part.  She breathed the essence of Diana, Princess of Themyscira - originally known in DC comics as Paradise Island. 

This film starts in today’s time with a mysterious photo delivery from a WWI era.  It’s Diana posing center with two soldiers on either side of her – all with a victorious smile.  One of those soldiers being Chris Pine. 

Without giving away too many details of the film, which centers around the dated photo mentioned earlier, this story spans the gamut of Diana’s life.  It gives a peek into her life from her precarious youth, as she yearned to be a warrior princess like the other Amazonian warriors on the island, to her adult years as she accompanied Chris Pine, a Brittish spy masquerading as a German pilot, from the beaches of Themyscira, her home island, to the real world, where she attempts to hunt down her nemesis, Aries, the god of war.

Wonder Woman showcases how loyal and fierce women can be in the same breath.  It colors a bold picture of how hard we fight when there’s a cause while still respecting the softer side of life.  Diana showcases this brilliantly as she champions forth in her battles kicking ass and saving the world all in the name of love.

The romantic chemistry between Gadot and Pine was just enough to paint a vivid picture of what happens behind closed doors, without being blatant or obscene.  I loved the tenderness between these two.  Their love symbolized so much in this film ... but again, I don't want to give any of the details away.  

I highly recommend this film for men and women alike as there’s plenty of gore, action, and fight scenes that will satisfy the male population while providing insight into the female psyche offering a glimpse of humanity, tenderness, and passion for humankind.  (okay and a glimpse of Chris Pine’s almost naked body – that alone makes this is a must-see film).